My sister sent me a link yesterday to a webinar on YouTube with Zach Bush MD called “It’s time to tell a new story about cancer”. It is indeed.
Now, I’m interested in anything that involves Zach Bush. He is an incredibly knowledgeable man who marries Science and Spirituality with great skill. Like another of my favourites – Albert Einstein. If you haven’t made his acquaintance on YouTube already, can I suggest you have a listen. All of what he says may not be to your liking, but he seems to know what he is talking about, and the wisdom, compassion and fluency with which he delivers his knowledge is compelling.
The webinar is about The Cancer Story Project. This project was launched in July 2020 by a woman called Cheryl Buck who in 2016 “was one of 1.6 million people who heard the words “you have cancer”. For the previous decade she had been researching cancer and other chronic diseases from a nutritional standpoint, focusing on Indigenous cultures and their awareness of the intrinsic healing power of the body and the earth. Her mission through the Cancer Story Project is “to tell a new story about cancer that empowers someone who has it and the people and community around them to embrace the cancer journey in a new way”.
Wonderful news that someone has started a global movement to change the story about cancer. It needs to happen. Enough of these ridiculous and fear-inducing labels of “cancer victim”, “cancer sufferer”, war against cancer, fight, battle, “lost the battle” blah blah blah. A negative language of warfare has been attached to cancer that reinforces the fear and does nothing to inspire hope. The whole cancer system of Oncology needs a complete overhaul including honest and open discussion about how effective at prolonging life the treatments really are. If they aren’t greatly effective, but it is all that is available at the moment, let everyone know so they are free to make their own choices and decisions about how they wish their body to be treated without being pressured (yes, pressured) into using the limited toolbox of treatments that Oncology currently has. There is a very interesting and disturbing article that can be found at https://www.icnr.com/articles/ischemotherapyeffective.html which discusses the use of relative risk rather than absolute risk in reporting the effectiveness of chemotherapy on the commonest types of cancer. In my opinion, it is all about making informed decisions, and that is very difficult to do in the current Oncology “bubble”. One, Oncologists are often not happy when their treatments are questioned, and it seems that they are not always privy to the facts about efficacy themselves if this article is to be believed. (An editorial in the Australian Prescriber dated 1 Feb 2006 regarding the article provides a seemingly balanced review. I leave you to make up your own mind). Two, they only generally believe in the treatments they have been trained to recommend, and three, it is very difficult to think rationally when you are being pressured to take urgent action and you are in a state of shock.
For medical treatment of cancer to change and become more holistic and less purely physically focused – the change is going to have to be requested by the people. If an Oncologist recommends treatment, every patient has the right, and should, request evidence of the efficacy of that treatment for the type of cancer they have. I am a bit cynical about statistics – especially as according to statistics I should have died ten years ago. Medicine is very, very slowly becoming a little more receptive to “complementary” treatments, but most of the money contributed to research is still being poured into looking for a pharmaceutical answer to the disease. This is awfully one-eyed, but understandable. The pharmaceutical companies are the only companies rich enough to do the trials, and they have convinced the majority of the population and definitely the medical profession, that drugs are the only viable option. Unfortunately, many wonderful “alternative” treatments only have “anecdotal” commendations due to the prohibitive cost of double blind trials. And anecdotal doesn’t mean much in the science of medicine.
I have privately been beating the drum for re-framing cancer for a decade now, and for the last 9 months more publicly through this blog. A few people have told me they used to be afraid of cancer, but now aren’t through watching my experience in living with it for many years. I hope that others also through this blog have lost some fear as well. This has been my intention – to share my journey, my learning, to help other people experience cancer not as the worst thing that has happened to them, but rather as an opportunity to stop and take stock of their life and the way they are living then take steps to live in a way that brings maximum joy and peace and love. This is what life is really about. Everything else is a distraction – but “everything else” has taken first place in our culture and we have unconsciously adopted the mindset and lived it out. It has brought us to a place of dis-ease. We are not at ease – proof lies in the constant increase of depression, anxiety, mental illness, addictions and chronic illness in the human race. These are not the fruits of an enlightened culture. They are the fruits of a dysfunctional and dis-connected one.
Perhaps cancer is a gift to humanity. It is a pause, a prompting to go within. To halt the busyness and re-align, however it is very difficult to do this when you are consumed with fear. Cancer is a very powerful word. It has the ability to change your life. Whether for better or worse is your choice. How we experience cancer is always going to be our choice. Whether we experience it isn’t.
Cancer brings with it the opportunity to confront and accept our own mortality instead of ignoring it. Ironically, embracing death teaches us how to really live. How to be more present, more grateful, more joyful. Isn’t that a good thing?. Anyone out there not want to be more present in each moment, more grateful and more joyful? Anyone out there prefer to be more fearful, more agitated, more depressed because they have cancer?
Its your choice.
I don’t think this notion of choice really sinks in for many people, because I see people constantly choosing to continue to suffer unnecessarily. For some reason it seems like a totally impractical and abstract idea that simply choosing to perceive cancer (or anything in life) in a different way can radically improve the quality of your life. Perhaps it is too simple. Or it seems like too much work. We have been trained to expect a magic pill to cure our physical and mental woes so we can just continue on living in the same way that caused us to end up with the woes in the first place. Someone said (it is attributed to Albert Einstein but there is no evidence that he actually said it) “the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result”. Hmm
I decided thirteen years ago that suffering was no longer an option for me. I’d had enough of fear and anxiety. It didn’t take me long to realise that it was only my mind that caused me to suffer. Life happens. It just is. It is our minds that attach meaning to it. Both collectively and individually. The meaning that we attach to it will either bring us peace or suffering. Its really that simple.
Viewing cancer as a gift-bearer will attach a positivity and purpose to it that will carry you through with much greater ease than viewing cancer as a fearful threat. Cancer can help us to heal relationships, forge deeper connections, build our personal community, make us stronger, more resilient and compassionate… If we embrace the experience and be open. Through cancer we can discover how loved and valued we are by those around us. We can open to healing the trauma and hurts of the past. Become more free.
Cancer can be a liberation.
Or it can be a terrifying diversion away from life as we planned it.
Its our choice.
I will never advise someone not to have chemotherapy. I firmly believe that everyone must choose what feels right for them at the time, however I question the wisdom of poisoning the whole body as a treatment for a disease. It doesn’t make any sense to me. The fact that the body is an incredible organism designed to heal itself and restore balance, is never more in evidence than when it recovers from the effects of chemotherapy. We really need to trust the body’s innate ability to heal and support that fully. Unfortunately, most Oncologists do not yet recommend their patients support their body through nutrition and mind. The advent of Integrative Oncology is a really positive step forward – however it may be a while before it becomes standard practice.
There are exciting new frontiers in mind-body medicine being explored by people like Joe Dispenza, Deepak Chopra, Caroline Myss, Bruce Lipton, Greg Braden, Dr Melissa Rankin, Kelly Turner Ph.d and Dr Zach Bush to name but a few, and to have their learning incorporated into mainstream treatment of cancer and other chronic diseases would, I believe, improve outcomes and reduce suffering dramatically. This is only going to happen in the near future if people are open with their Oncologists and medical staff about the techniques and modalities they are using in addition to those recommended by the Oncologist.
So, let’s create a new story about cancer. One that enables us to live through the experience with equanimity, taking anything that arises in our stride, being peaceful and happy. It is possible. I’m doing it. More and more people are doing it.
It’s part of our evolution.
It’s all good.
I want to share with you a Near Death Experience that my partner Ian had several weeks before he died.
Ian lived with Neuro-Endocrine Pancreatic cancer with Metastases to the liver for over 9 years. When he was diagnosed, he was told there were no effective treatments available for him, and to come back for palliative chemotherapy when the pain got too bad. He wasn’t a man to take this diagnosis lying down. He was stubborn and determined. The fact that he lived for over nine years was regarded as nothing short of miraculous by medical staff.
Three weeks before he died, Ian began vomiting blood. The possibility of this happening had been lurking on the periphery of our life for over two years. We had been told then that he had developed what was essentially varicose veins of the esophagus due to the portal vein carrying blood from his liver being slowly blocked by a tumour. His body, in its immense wisdom and capacity to reinstate balance reacted by diverting blood through other veins in his body which weren’t designed for such a large flow, and due to the extra pressure, caused varicose veins to form on his esophagus. We had been told that one day they may burst and Ian would bleed out and die. This was something that took me quite a while to come to terms with. I had a phobia myself about vomiting in public, and knowing that my partner may at anytime begin to suddenly vomit blood and bleed out, challenged one of my greatest fears. I eventually managed to find peace when I truly understood that life unfolds perfectly. Everything happens at the right place at the right time for our higher good.
This particular day, Ian had awoken in the morning, and rushed to the toilet to vomit – a large blood clot. One of the varicose veins had begun bleeding during the night. He came back to bed and went back to sleep. He had the most amazing capacity to put things out of his mind. Initially I was infuriated by it. He would go back to sleep while I lay awake worrying. Eventually I learned to let it go, accept whatever was happening, and go back to sleep myself. He awoke an hour later and vomited again – this time the blood was fresh. I managed to talk him into going to the local emergency department. He hated hospital, and was always very reluctant to go.
They checked him over and decided he needed to be sent by Flying Doctor to a Perth hospital – 170kms away. They gave him medication to help control the bleeding. I called my sons to come from work to see their step-father before he left as we knew it might be the last time we saw him. We said good-bye and he was taken away to the ambulance for transporting to the airport. It was arranged that I would go home, pack a bag for him and myself then travel by car to Perth and meet him at the hospital.
I was driving alone to Perth when I suddenly realised that I was completely calm and peaceful. The only thoughts going through my mind were that life was unfolding perfectly. Everything was happening in exactly the right way at exactly the right time, and all I needed was to be open, and trust that everything was perfect. It felt wonderful to be in this state where I felt no stress, no fear, and it enabled me to be completely present. I had spent the first 45 years of my life in varying degrees of anxiety, and I knew that if I had been forced to go through this even a few years earlier, I would have been experiencing a great deal of stress and pain. Now, I just felt peaceful. Peace is very under-rated in our culture for some reason. Not many people find much value in seeking to have a peaceful mind, however once you have experienced it, you never want to live any other way.
On arriving at the hospital, I was pleased to hear that Ian had survived the trip. He was soon reviewed by doctors and it was decided he would be operated on to try and stop the bleeding. I can’t remember why, but the operation didn’t happen for several days. The hospital room had a large window with a window seat, and this was where I slept for 5 nights. It was a new hospital, but for some reason, it had been built with no facilities for the families of country patients to stay. Ian tended to become very agitated if I wasn’t close, so it was better for everyone if I stayed in the room.
The operation was not a success. Within 12 hours, Ian began passing blood. A lot of blood. It was decided to give him a blood transfusion, he had the first bag, the bleeding continued. He had the second bag, the bleeding continued. They put the third (and unbeknown to us, the last) bag up. Ian was very cold by this time. Lying under a pile of blankets. I was reading to him from A Course in Miracles, and I remember the room as warm and dim, and very very peaceful. I looked over at him at one point and he had a big smile on his face. He opened his eyes and looked at me, and said “don’t mind me, I am in a place of unconditional love”. This from a man, who had great difficulty in accepting he was loved. He told me later that he left his body and was looking at it lying on the bed from behind.
It was around this time (he told me all this later), that he saw angels around him, and he said to them “Go to Bunnings (a large hardware store), and get some epoxy resin, and I will trowel it onto these veins to stop the bleeding. He was a carpenter by trade and felt that he was more skilled than the angels at working with epoxy. He visualised himself doing this.
The bleeding stopped.
The Doctors were astounded, they couldn’t understand what had happened, and decided to send him back to Bunbury via ambulance with a paramedic as soon as possible. I followed the ambulance in my car. Ian was taken straight to the Palliative Care Unit, and they told me afterwards that from the clinical reports from the doctors in Perth, they were expecting him to be unconscious and near death. Instead, he was talking and joking with the staff. He told his Palliative Specialist that he was going to stay a little while to recoup, but he would be going home. He did. He came home for a week, and the day before he returned to hospital, he insisted on climbing the ladder to help the boys clean the gutters of leaves. The next day he vomited blood again, and returned to hospital.
I stayed with him in the hospital, and helped him to shower in the morning, He was quite weak. About 2pm, he asked me to help him to sit on the side of the bed, then he stood and put his arms around me, resting his head on my shoulder. His whole body trembled with the effort. I didn’t realise that this was his goodbye. I helped him back into bed. He turned his face away from me, and I knew in that moment, that he was going to leave his body soon. He had made the decision. He had never wanted to be in a state where he needed physical care. He was fiercely independent, and I believe he decided it was time to go. I went and said to the nurses, ‘he is going to die soon’. They felt it was unlikely, but came and felt his pulse,and agreed that he had in fact taken a turn towards death. He was barely conscious from then on, and died peacefully at 7.30pm that evening.
We had a deep soul connection, him and I, and when he died, I still felt the connection. I have never felt separated from him. Death has no meaning to the soul. Love transcends death. The bonds are never broken. You move on, but they are never broken. Grief can stop us from feeling the connection. Our beliefs can stop us from feeling the connection. The connection is still there.
We are in eternity now. Life continues. Death is just a return to our natural state of being – in spirit. The body has gone, but the essence, energy and consciousness of the soul continues forever. A week after Ian died, I was walking on the farm, and it suddenly felt as though time stopped still. It was completely silent. And in that moment I understood that Ian was ageless, and so was I. I knew us as eternal beings, and I realised that even if I lived another 40 years on earth without him, it was just a blink of an eye in eternity. There was nothing to mourn. Yes, I missed him, but we had been soul companions forever. We would be together again. Everything was exactly how it should be. Life was unfolding perfectly. I was full of joy and peace.
Our beliefs about death and what happens afterwards will either cause us to suffer or rejoice. It is a choice. I believe that embracing death – both Ian’s and my own, has taught me how to live. It has taught me that only love matters. It has taught me not to take life so seriously. Not to get sucked into the stress and rush and anxiety that pervades the planet. It has taught me to live today, I may not have tomorrow. It has taught me to love life more, appreciate what I have, love nature. Embracing death has taught me not to be attached. To love, but hold loosely. Embracing death sets us free.
Let’s stop trying to ignore death. Let’s stop hiding it away. Let’s stop the solemnity and glumness of the funerals. Let’s celebrate life while we live, and then, when we die, may others celebrate our life and be glad they knew us.
Joy and Love and Peace are everywhere – just a change of thinking away. Seek them everywhere and you will find them…..
Ian Haslam 17/05/65 – 17/03/15
Through expectation, we set ourselves up for disappointment and anger…… and then blame someone else.
Last week I asked my partner to take me into the Bunnings store so I could buy bags of potting mix and manure for my garden. At that time, I was still unable to push a trolley without feeling an unpleasant heavy feeling in my chest, so I needed help. He kindly agreed, so off we went. We got ourselves a trolley, and were heading towards the soil section when he said, “I just need to ask about something”, and off he went. I was left standing there with the trolley thinking he is just going to ask one of the attendants about a product and then come back to help me, but he disappeared.
I wait for a few minutes, then start to wonder if perhaps he had felt unwell and needed to rush to the toilet. I think “well, he could have told me”. After a few more minutes, I decide to push the trolley to the soil section and load the bags myself. I admit it, I am not great at waiting. I don’t like queues. The trolley is quite heavy now and I feel the uncomfortable feeling in my chest – I am not sure if it is my heart or my lungs which are complaining about the strain. Hopefully it is my lungs, if it is my heart, maybe I will collapse in the aisle in Bunnings and create a disturbance – I would rather not.
Now I am starting to feel annoyed. I have been abandoned, my partner was supposed to be helping me. In righteous indignation, I gamely push the heavy trolley towards the checkout. Out of the corner of my eye, I see my partner approaching with a roll of something in his hand. Good for him, he obviously found what he wanted. He hasn’t been caught short and made a dash for the toilet, and here I am, risking a heart attack (really?), pushing my own trolley. See how my mind took its own riotous course.
I am not happy.
He says “you could have waited for me, I was only 5 minutes”. That isn’t the point, thank you very much. I huff and puff my way through the checkout, in martyred silence towards him. He is starting to get annoyed himself. He says “Well, I put myself out to bring you into town, and this is the thanks I get”. Probably a valid point, however I am not ready to concede. Also, I am now not feeling that well. Perhaps the trolley pushing wasn’t as good an idea as waiting for him was.
When we get home, I sit down to recover and take a good look at myself. Why did I get annoyed? I can acknowledge now that I was unreasonable, but why?
I realised that I had created an unconscious expectation of going to Bunnings and getting the potting mix that didn’t involve my partner going off and doing his own thing – especially without telling me what he was doing (yes, guys, communication really does make a difference). The whole situation could probably have been avoided by him telling me he was just going to dash off and get something if I could just wait 5 minutes rather than put the potting mix on then having to push a heavy trolley through the store. A perfectly reasonable thought process you would think. But I Had Expectations. (Of communication too, clearly). I was standing in an area surrounded by plants – which I love. He could be forgiven for thinking I would be perfectly happy just loitering looking at the plants until he came back. Any other day I would have been, But Today I Had Expectations. And somehow, even though I wasn’t even aware of that myself – he should have known. Hmmm.
Absolutely, but in my defense, I had no idea that I even had an expectation . It was entirely unconscious. When things didn’t go as I thought they should – I became annoyed. And the scary thing is – in that moment I felt completely justified. Full of righteous indignation – I mean, he was the one that was in the wrong, leaving me like that – if I had decided to risk my health rather than wait 5 more minutes for him, then that was his fault too. I was busy heaping coals of condemnation on his unsuspecting head.
We both had phones – I could have called him. But no.
In hindsight, I was embarrassed with myself. How ridiculous I had been.
My mind had fooled me.
Our mind frequently fools us into interpreting and believing things that simply aren’t true. When we are acting and reacting unconsciously (without focused thinking), our minds are entirely subjective and biased. But the mind is also capable of objectivity when deliberate thought is imposed and an attempt at objectivity is made.
I apologised to him, and acknowledged that I had been unreasonable. End of story. It could have continued on though if I hadn’t been able to look at my own actions honestly and take responsibility for them. He was more justified in this instance to be annoyed than me, and we both could have ended up ignoring each other, and the rest of the day would have turned sour.
Relationships are full of expectations and subsequent disappointments. And usually we blame the other person for the way we feel. You made me annoyed because you….
Stop right there.
No-one makes us feel anything.
What we feel comes from within ourselves – our own interpretation of the event…. Always.
And our own interpretation of the event is always coloured by our expectations, our beliefs, and our egocentricity. Add to that a desire for control, and we have a recipe for potential disaster in relationships -with anyone. This becomes particularly apparent when our children become teenagers. We are no longer able to control them easily, we have huge expectations about how they should behave and think, and because they are trying to establish their own identity and control over their own lives, they are most likely to challenge our authority and hold a mirror up to our own behaviour. Often our response is anger – a defensive response that is excellent for shutting down the immediate rebellion, but ultimately risks closing down effective communication until the teenager becomes an adult or a parent themselves. Not desirable if we want to be there to help guide them through the teenage years and balance the influence of their peers..
The ability to look honestly at ourselves releases us from hell. It really does. When we can take responsibility for our own feelings and subsequent actions, we stop blaming others. We begin to have closer, kinder, more loving relationships with other people. We are calmer and kinder. We stop having expectations of other people then losing it when they don’t live up to it. Life is less stressful. We begin to communicate our wants and needs more clearly without using emotional manipulation to get what we want. We create good boundaries. We can hold our dignity and express our view without becoming emotionally involved or needing the other person to come over to our way of thinking. We become more tolerant.
Life becomes so much more peaceful and happy because we aren’t wasting energy on getting angry when people don’t behave how we think they should. People behave how THEY think they should. People only change when they see the need to. We only change when we see the need to. Let’s just look at ourselves and take responsibility for our own behaviour. When we are perfect, then we can have expectations of others. (When we are perfect we will CHOOSE not to have expectations of others).
It requires courage to look at ourselves honestly. It takes humility to apologise. When we have been involved in a situation where the other person has behaved badly (in our estimation), we can still apologise for our own behaviour if it has been less than admirable. We humans have a strange view of apologies. We feel that somehow it might diminish us and make us smaller than the other. And yet, the opposite is true. It makes us stronger and wiser. It also allows us to let go of the situation instead of holding on to it. We accumulate so many little resentments and disappointments over the years that clog up our energy. Individually, they may be small, but collectively they are big. They drain us of vitality,
Let’s let go of expectation and live life joyfully and peacefully with our fellow, imperfect human beings..
Drop expectations – it leaves you space to simply enjoy each moment.
This seems to be a topic most people don’t want to think about..
I love talking about death and the afterlife. I find it the most inspiring and uplifting topic, but there are not many people who are open to discussing it. There are several reasons for this I think. One, it is confronting; until we are forced to acknowledge our own mortality, often through a serious illness, most of us try not to remember that we are going to die. Two, there are so many differing opinions as to what happens after we die, that it can be overwhelming. There are those who believe death is the end – oblivion afterwards, those who believe you sleep until the judgment day, those who believe in reincarnation…. I have spent the last 13 years reading about the afterlife, and I am sharing here what I have come to believe. Take it or leave it… but at least read this with an open mind….
I remember going to the funeral of a family friend, an older man who had died in his sleep (way to go!). It was stormy that night and I recall trying to shut images of him lying in a coffin in the cold ground from my mind. It didn’t bear thinking of. I was probably about 14 at the time.
The church I belonged to was very hazy about what happened after you died. I got the impression you “slept” until a judgment day which occurred sometime during eternity. They were very clear however about what happened after the judgment day. If you were counted worthy, you went to heaven with Jesus. If not, you went to hell with Satan and were tortured for eternity. I don’t think anyone was ever quite sure they had done enough to be worthy.
Thirteen years ago in the midst of the collapse of my life after leaving the church, I decided I wanted to “make friends” with death. I was afraid of death. Also, at that point, I was afraid of life. Making friends with death may actually have seemed the easier option to begin with. In fact it was – making friends, real friends with life took me much longer. I hadn’t really had much to do with people dying – three of my grandparents had died by the time I was in my mid-teens, but I had not been present when they died, so I was quite removed from the reality of it. I was also rather uncomfortable with sick people, but I decided to get a job in the local hospital.
I thought the job was as a Patient Care Assistant. Turned out it was as a cleaner. Now, I hate cleaning toilets – the universe has a sense of humour – and I ended up cleaning 15 toilets a day. The first day I was rostered to clean the rooms up in the Palliative Care Unit (I really didn’t want to work in there – it scared me), I walked into a room where an emaciated little man was lying on the bed presumably asleep. But his eyes were half open. I was really freaked out. I thought he had died. Then he opened his eyes fully and looked at me. I felt an enormous surge of love flow through me, and in that moment, I decided I was going to train to work as a Patient Care Assistant in Palliative Care. I did, and I loved it. It was such a privilege to share the dying journey with people and help in a little way to make them more comfortable.
Five years later, the emaciated man in the bed was my partner, and I held him as the life-force left his body. His face relaxed and all the lines of pain that scored his face dissipated as he quietly left. I couple of faltering breaths and he was gone. It was beautiful. Before we were together, the soul connection was so strong, we “felt” the connection as a tangible thing. When we were together, his illness, two ego’s, and the busyness of life tended to make the soul connection less real, but before I had even left the hospital after he died, I remember feeling it so strongly again and saying to myself “Aah he’s back”. You see, he was a gentle soul, but a sensitive man who had become hard to protect himself – they were two very different identities.
The first patient in palliative care whose body I helped a nurse to wash was an elderly gentleman I had grown fond of. He had died during the night and I was on shift the following morning. I was filled with trepidation at the thought of washing his body and preparing it for the morgue as I had never seen a dead body before, and I was worried I might faint or freak out. As I walked into his room, I had the sense of a soul liberated from a cumbersome human body that had been bedridden. It felt joyful. The body was so still – the life-force had left, and it was so apparent it was simply a vessel, a vehicle to carry life for a while, and then when the time is right, discarded. It was beautiful to respectfully wash and honour the body that had carried a precious soul on its journey through life.
For thirteen years now, I have read copiously and widely on the many ideas about what happens after we die. I have read accounts of people who had near death experiences, or out of body death experiences, I have read the Tibetan book of Living and Dying, books by mediums who can communicate with the dead, psychiatrists who practice past life regressions and hypnosis to access the super conscious mind, I have read what Yogananda has to say on the subject, and various other enlightened people. I have read the Bible.
I have come to the following conclusion. I will not know for sure what is true about the afterlife until I die myself, and therefore the most sensible thing to do is to choose a belief that uplifts, comforts and inspires me and takes away any fear of death. Which is what I have done. Having said that, I want to say I haven”t just blindly grabbed a belief and decided that will do. I like science, and I like experience. Some of the most compelling stories of the afterlife for me were from those who were trained in the medical sciences, and who came to their own beliefs about the afterlife reluctantly initially because it went against everything they had been trained to believe. Dr Eban Alexander, Dr Brian Weiss and Michael Newton PhD are among these. I will list their books among others, at the end of the blog. Although many of the accounts given by people who had near death experiences are remarkably similar, they are also individual – just like life – we experience life and death uniquely while sharing common events.
From all my reading and research, and my own experience of my partner communicating with me after he died, I have developed some very strong beliefs that seem to me to be perfectly feasible. These beliefs allow me to face my own imminent death with complete peace – even, to be truthful, a sense of joy at returning home. I have owned a copy of Michael Newtons book Destiny of Souls for about 8 years, and it resonates so deeply with me, it seems as though my soul lights up and says Yes!!, that’s home, let’s go!!. I have found the pull so strong that I have to ration reading the book.
All my beliefs are based on the assumption of our Creator being unconditional love. If you believe that, and logically follow that thought through… you cannot believe in everlasting hell. An unconditionally loving God and hell are not compatible. Unless of course you choose to believe in a Creator that is only unconditionally loving to a few who live how He(She), wants them to… which still means conditions to the love, so it isn’t unconditional.
This is only a portion of what I believe, I could probably write a book on it, but hopefully you can get a sense of it. I have held most of what I read against what Yogananda has written about the afterlife in his books to see if it holds up. Yogananda was an enlightened being with a lot of spiritual credibility, so therefore is a good yardstick. We should all learn to trust our intuition about what we read…. we have the ability to know truth from nonsense, so if it resonates and feels right, take it on board. If it doesn’t let it go. Know also that the truth you know today, may not be your truth tomorrow as you learn and go deeper into connecting with your spirit.
A note: I had heard of reincarnation – in jokes, but the first book I read on the subject, I felt an immediate recognition of the truth of it. it made sense to me, and provided the only rational explanation for the apparent inequity of opportunity that had quietly bothered me for many years. I would think how unfair it was that some people had the hardest of lives and awful mind conditioning from a very young age, while others were brought up in loving, spiritually open families. It didn’t seem equal. Reincarnation provided the answer for me, and everything I have experienced since has only served to reinforce the truth of this belief. For many of us in the Western World, especially those brought up in Christian homes, it is a huge stretch to consider reincarnation as truth, even though most eastern religions regard it as established fact. There are many Christian scholars who acknowledge that references to reincarnation were taken out of the New Testament of the Bible in AD 325 by the Roman emperor Constantine the Great. In 553 AD, the Second Council of Constantinople confirmed this action and declared the concept of reincarnation a heresy. They felt it would weaken the power of the church by giving people too much time to seek salvation. There are many, many meticulous studies on reincarnation by intelligent scientific people – we aren’t talking flaky New Agers who believe in unicorns. The evidence is very compelling, but don’t believe me – look for yourself. Personally, I don’t think it is intelligent to reject or malign a belief without first looking at the information available about it. Only then are we in the position to have an informed opinion about it.
In conclusion, none of us know the full truth about death (or even life). There are some very enlightened souls who have shared what they know, and many people who through personal experience have come to some strong beliefs, who also have shared what they believe. The beautiful thing about most people who experience a Near Death Experience is that all without exception, lose their fear of death. And their attitude to life changes. We are lucky to live in a world where we have access to so much information including sacred scriptures from all around the world and accounts of people’s personal experiences.
I believe that making friends with death shows us how to live more freely. Contrary to popular belief that it is a subject that is depressing and best avoided, I believe it has taught me to embrace and love life more, because I have learned to hold life lightly and lovingly. It is very difficult to get overwhelmed by experiences in life when you know you are an eternal spirit that lives forever – perspective changes so completely, even death of the physical body is regarded lovingly.
Why suffer unnecessarily? We are all going to die, it is unavoidable. It is really quite odd when you think about it, that the one experience we are all going to go through, is the one that most people are completely devoid of knowledge about.
Some wonderful reading material if you are interested:
Have fun!! (seriously, you will enjoy reading any of these books.)
I am not very interested in cancer.
I guess you could think it is easy for me to say that when I experience very little discomfort or unwellness in my body from the cancer. Am I just fortunate, or is it because I don’t invest cancer with any great significance? I am constantly told by health professionals I come into contact with that my appearance and wellness does not match my clinical notes. Is it luck, or can my mind and spirit really affect my body so much that it can also carry the cancer lightly?
I don’t know the answer. No-one knows for sure, but I can tell you this with complete confidence – cancer is nothing to my soul/spirit/higher self except an opportunity to learn and grow. Once I was able to bring my mind into alignment with that attitude, I believe my body followed suit.
I think we approach life backwards, and make things so much harder for ourselves than they need to be. We create unnecessary suffering because we start with the physical first and often go no further. This is perfectly understandable given we live in a physical world that seems like the only reality. Mind and spirit seem like abstraction and ethereal. But because of this, we leave the real power of creation and life untouched. It is like filling a bath a thimbleful of water at a time when we have a bucket (the mind) and taps attached to the water mains (the spirit) at our disposal.
The thimble requires a lot of effort to fill the bath, but it gets there in the end after a lot of extra effort. The bucket is more effective, but when you turn the taps on and the water just flows …… that is effortless. And this I believe is what it is like when you bring your mind, body and spirit into alignment – life just flows…. effortlessly.
What’s not to love about that?
This physical world is a delight. It is a playground for children and adults alike. We forget this. We come here and inhabit a body that enables us to play. We can touch, taste, smell, hear and see the world around us. We can create things and make things. There is so much to play with, so much potential to create, so much beauty. So much joy and love just waiting to be unearthed.
We have complete freedom of choice
But when we get here, we forget what we are.
And we forget to keep playing as we physically grow.
Instead, we believe we are a body, then a mind and lastly, if we ever get that far, a spirit.
It is in the wrong order.
Can you see why this is a problem?
Because the body is of the earth. It is a physical organism that is subject to the laws of nature. It must die. It is subject to illness and pain and annihilation. It is vulnerable.
The mind is a “body” on the mental plane of existence that is attached to the physical body. The physical body is its home. Without the physical body, the mind dies also, therefore it is very attached to the physical body remaining alive. This also makes it vulnerable…. and afraid. For itself and the body.
So here we have two aspects of our-self that are vulnerable, and one of them is also afraid. And because the mind is attached to the body, we feel the fear in the body as physical sensations, and that makes the fear seem real. Because of its deep existential fears, the mind is very alert to anything that threatens both its’ and the body’s survival. The un-managed mind is based in fear at a very deep level and is constantly on the lookout for attack..
Fear is not conducive to play.
We can look at young children who feel loved and safe in their environment before the collective human fear becomes programmed into their sub-conscious mind.
They are trusting, spontaneous, open, inquisitive, creative and exploring.
Most of us lose these attributes as we grow from young children into adults. Or at least they become much more subdued and subterranean. We absorb the collective human fear of not being enough, of being unworthy, unloveable and vulnerable, and quickly learn to shut our natural openness down in an attempt to keep ourselves safe.
We learn to play it safe.
We loose our sense of awe and wonder trying to be cool and sophisticated and create a persona (a mask) we present to the world in an attempt to appear strong. We forget that the physical world is a playground (sometimes we are even taught it is a battleground), because we are only operating on the level of body and mind, and from those levels, the world and our physical life look like something to be taken very seriously indeed. Particularly if you believe you are your mind and body and that these are finite and the only ones you get. To add insult to injury, most of us live in a culture where the physical rewards of life are much more highly regarded than the mental or spiritual. This is very obviously the case, when we see the majority of the population are willing to endure physical and mental discomfort and even suffering in the pursuit of material gain. Often thinking they have no choice.
There is the other aspect of our-self that is often overlooked.
Our spirit /soul/ higher self.
This aspect, if acknowledged at all, has often been subverted (its power and authority undermined) by religious dogma within the very institutions intended to support it. Religion has managed to give Spirit a bad name by attaching a multitude of rules and conditions to God’s love. In my experience all this does is limit the individuals capacity to fully live and therefore grow. Spirit is not separate from life. Spirit is life.
David Tacey in his book “The Spirituality Revolution” says “I appear to some people to be optimistic, given my conviction that we exist in a living connection with a spiritual reality, whether or not we notice it”. This is my conviction also. I believe we are spiritual beings having a human experience, and as such, are always in a living connection with a spiritual reality. Whether we notice it or not is another matter.
Real power lies in noticing it.
Our spirit is fearless and free. It knows it is unconditionally loved and is always safe. It has no fear of annihilation because it is eternal.
I know myself now as eternal spirit, having a mind and body for the purpose of living life on earth. This means that the order of importance for me is now reversed. Matters of spirit are most important, mind second, body last. This is not to say that I don’t look after my body – I do, because I value its worth as a vehicle for experiencing life on earth, but because I don’t identify with it as “me”, the fear around its survival has gone. I love life, I enjoy life, but I see this physical life as a tiny dot in forever. I have consciously chosen to bring my mind into alignment with my spirit by choosing beliefs that inspire and uplift me. Beliefs that enable the “fruits of the spirit” mentioned in the Christian Bible “love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control” to arise more and more. The only thing preventing us living out “the fruits of the Spirit” all of the time is our fear, and our focus on our physical reality.
Our spirit is always connected to Spirit/God Creator/Life, whatever your preferred name. Engaging with our spirit is embarking on a path that takes us out of fear and into love, because Spirit is love. It takes us from closed, fearful, anxious and stressed, back into trusting, open, spontaneous, creative, inquisitive and exploring. Life becomes happy and fun. We are no longer concerned by problems which are only temporary, but which when we are operating only out of mind and body, seem so all-consuming and important. We begin to conceive a bigger picture that is not primarily physically based, but spiritually based and impervious to time and destruction. We feel safe. And life begins to seem effortless. Everything seems to be working to benefit us because that is what we believe and that becomes our reality.
I didn’t consciously choose cancer. It appeared to choose me. I don’t believe in random meaningless events, so I believe cancer was always going to be a part of my life. What was my choice however, was how I was going to experience it.
Resist it or embrace it. Fear it or love it.
It was my choice.
I chose to embrace it and learn to love it. I do not regret this, it has been one of my greatest teachers. As my daughter-in-law said to me recently – cancer changed my life for the better. It was my impetus to push through fear and seek peace and joy.
Real, lasting peace and joy.
And the story hasn’t ended yet.
It is all about perspective.
If I prepared a questionnaire, and then asked everyone I met if they would like to be able to face every experience life brought to them with calmness, peace and without their happiness being disturbed, I think the majority of people would say “yes please”. Especially at the moment.
Fear and anxiety is a world pandemic which is causing more suffering than COVID-19. The virus has just heightened it.
It is affecting many more people than just those who contract the virus.
The media is making sure of it. Reporting accidents and disasters with great relish from all around the globe. Diligently feeding us every negative economic and social event or prediction they hear of.
Feeding the fear.
The current state of the world has not been caused by COVID-19. The virus just lifted the lid on what was already there. The current state of the world is the result of the collective minds of humanity. We are reaping the results of a narrow focus of thought that has dominated and directed the thinking of humanity for a very long time. The advent of the industrial age and subsequent technology has allowed this thinking to increase exponentially and our potential for destruction just got greater and greater – very quickly, on a much bigger scale than ever before.
And here we are.
I call it the “Me and Mine” thinking.
The “Me and Mine” thinking sees itself as separate. There is little sense of the inter-connectedness of all things on this planet. This is the thinking that says I will look after Me, and Mine, and to hell with the rest. As long as I am comfortable. As long as I have enough. The problem is though, that this thinking never has enough. Not content with shelter, I need bigger shelter, and more stuff to fill it with. I need more money, because I need more stuff. I need more money because I am fearful, the future is uncertain, and I think money is going to make it more certain. If I am fortunate, or work hard enough, I manage to accumulate more money than I can spend on myself and mine (my family), so then I invest it so I can make more money on it. And I fear all the time that I might lose it. In the meantime, children are dying because of no food. But that doesn’t matter, because I am separate, and I only look after me and mine. Anything that doesn’t directly impact on Me and Mine, can easily be dismissed. Because I am separate, right?
This Me and Mine thinking destroys living forests that help humanity to breathe, and replaces them with dead brick or timber shelters that suck energy, and suppress the creative energy of the earth. (If that brick house wasn’t squatting on that piece of earth and stopping sunlight getting through, that same area if left alone, would produce life in the form of plants, which would support bird and animal life. I know its a bit radical, but I’m just saying…. Look how far away from living in harmony with nature we have come).
The Me and Mine thinking has created chemicals which temporarily fix a problem, make money, and cause long term negative consequences. But that is Ok because it is making Me and Mine more comfortable right now. Even if it is destroying the soil which we rely on for real food. Even if it is slowly poisoning the eco-system and humanity. (we can turn a blind eye to slow destruction or death, it is the potentially quick ones we have a problem with – like COVID-19 – then we panic).
The Me and Mine thinking allows individuals and corporations, especially corporations, to make decisions that are not for the good of the planet, humanity, cultures, and nature, but good for financial profits. Short term gain causing long term pain. But that is Ok, because we all know life is about making money and having more, and it isn’t impacting negatively on me and mine right now.
This “Me and Mine” thinking inspires selfishness, intolerance, power, greed, indifference, destruction of eco-systems, and collapse of communities. The Me and Mine” thinking is actually based in fear. It is driven by fear, and everything it creates is subject to fear. This thinking refuses to see the bigger picture, because “I am separate, and what I do doesn’t really impact on everything or everyone else”.
Well yes it does actually. And we have billions of people on the earth with the same thought system. Collectively, it impacts on everything and everyone.
And here we are.
The year 2020.
The thinking and creating of human minds has brought us here. We have all contributed.
Albert Einstein said
“The world as we have created it, is a process of our thinking.
It cannot be changed without changing our thinking”
We need to change our thinking. Collectively, but it starts with the individual. It starts with you and me.
We must STOP and contemplate the kind of world we want to live in, and then act as though we already live in it. I want to live in a kinder, more supportive community – then I must live NOW as a member of a kinder, more supportive community would live. As another great man said
“Be the change you want to see in the world”
If I want to live in a kinder, more supportive community, then I must be kinder and more supportive – and not just to “mine”. The beauty of this is, that I then begin to attract people with the same “vibration” as me. I attract kinder, more supportive people, and it grows exponentially. You want to live in a more positive world? Then be more positive. Refuse to buy into anything that is contrary to what you desire. We are all enabling and perpetuating the negativity and fear and anxiety by not consciously choosing something different.
We all have a choice.
If you don’t like the status quo, if you don’t like feeling anxious and fearful, then CHANGE IT. Stop accepting this thinking as “the way it is”. Thirteen years ago I decided I’d had enough of fear and anxiety, and I changed my thinking. I have become freer and freer, and my mind is now naturally peaceful and calm 99% of the time. Everyone can achieve that state.
Stop waiting for the Government to legislate happiness, peace and selflessness, or that organisation to do it, or the schools to teach it, or the neighbours to be nicer before you smile at them and are kind. Start with your neighbour… do you even know them? Each of us must start now. Asking ourselves what sort of world we want to live in, and then consciously living it out. The world we live in now is the result of the majority of humanity unconsciously following instead of consciously thinking and consciously choosing.
I spent many years feeling there was nothing I could do, I was just one person, and not a rich one at that. But there are things we can do that have power. We can make conscious decisions that are for the good of the planet as well as ourselves. Buy organic and spray free food as much as possible. Grow our own, even just our salad greens. Support local growers. Start a group on facebook to exchange or give away homegrown fruit and vege. I see lemons falling off trees. Stop wasting and throwing out food. Source ethically produced clothes and other products. Stop using sprays. Lobby the local shires or councils to plant fruit trees in public places. Plant trees. Plant native plants in your garden for the birds and bees. We can encourage and inspire other people to do likewise. Support one child who is hungry. Support a struggling family in your neighbourhood. Say something positive to the checkout operator. Smile at people. Say hello to strangers.
But the greatest change that we can make for the good of humanity and the planet, is to change our mindset. DROP THE FEAR. Fear (and that includes anxiety) closes us down. Choose love instead. Love opens us up. In every instance, choose love. It is a win/win situation. Not only do we feel good, but so does everyone else we interact with. It is the ripple effect. It goes on, and on, and on.
Be an inspiration.
Stop choosing financial gain over humanity.
I am going to end with another quote from Albert Einstein.
“A human Being is a part of the whole called by us – the universe. A part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical illusion of his consciousness.
This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and affection for a few persons nearest to us.
Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in it’s beauty”
Forgiveness is an act of self-love.
A gift of healing we give to our-self.
The conditioned mind has a bit of a problem with forgiveness. As usual, it is a matter of perception.
The two most common statements we hear people make about the refusal to forgive, is that someone doesn’t deserve forgiveness or that they can’t forgive them for what they did. Let’s look at them separately.
They don’t deserve forgiveness….
I kind of covered this in my previous blog entitled “Everyone is doing their best”. If you think some-one doesn’t deserve forgiveness then consider the idea that in the moment that they committed the act you believe they don’t deserve forgiveness for – they were unable to act in any other way. This is not an excuse, and should never be used as such – it is a statement of fact. Even if they did or said something deliberately – they were acting out of a mind that believed it was a good idea at the time. A delusional mind – we all have one. Yes, we could look on it in horror and say but, but…. it was a terrible thing to do, and I could never in a million years consider doing such a thing. No, you couldn’t, because you haven’t walked in that persons shoes all your life. Your mind has not been shaped by the same experiences. Warped by the same wounds. Driven by the same pain. But if you had…. you may well have acted the same.
Sometimes we decide the person doesn’t deserve forgiveness because they don’t show remorse, they don’t apologise, or they refuse to admit their behaviour wasn’t OK. This is the result of an error in our own thinking. We are not understanding the purpose of forgiveness.
Forgiveness does not mean we condone the behaviour. It does not mean we stay with an abuser, or continue to hang around someone who doesn’t treat us well. It does not mean we don’t report them if it was a criminal act.
I can’t forgive them for what they did….
Sometimes it seems that what has happened is such a violation of you, that you feel you can never forgive. You don’t want to feel forgiveness, as though somehow, by hanging on to un-forgiveness, you are punishing them, Maybe this works for you if the person wants your forgiveness and by with-holding it you can exact revenge, but often the person we need to forgive is oblivious to how we feel. With both of the examples above, there is a serious flaw in the understanding of forgiveness.
Generally speaking, un-forgiveness hurts you more than them.
Lets look at why this is so.
I close my eyes and imagine un-forgiveness. I’ve experienced it. I know what it feels like, and it is in stark contrast to how I now feel all of the time.
Un-forgiveness feels like hardness, rigidity, rage, hate, resentment. It feels like tightness and constriction. It is closed and unyielding and like a rock in my stomach. It actually makes me feel a little sick because I don’t generally have feelings like this anymore, and when I do, they are so out of alignment with my energy I feel physically unwell. I can feel the impact of it on my muscles – particularly in my neck, shoulders and arms. It weakens my energy. When you live with un-forgiveness you are so used to how it feels that it no longer registers in your conscious mind.
Un-forgiveness generates a stress response in your body – this is what the body sensations are that you feel when you think about your un-forgiveness. When you think about the person and whatever they did. This stress response peaks when you consciously think of the person, but chances are, that stress response is always there at a lower level if you haven’t forgiven. The body is not designed to operate at its optimum for long periods of time in the stress response. It weakens the body’s resistance to disease.
Un-forgiveness keeps you tied on an energetic, emotional and mental level to the person you cannot forgive. Their actions still have power over you – hence the heightened stress response when you think of them. You may have removed from them physically, but as long as you don’t forgive, the energetic, emotional and mental ties still effectively bind you.
Un-forgiveness drags your past into your present and your future. Through your un-forgiveness the taint of their actions continues to spoil your life long after the act was over.
Un-forgiveness creates a space within you that is not open to the flow of life.
Un-forgiveness takes up space where love could be instead.
It takes energy to hold onto un-forgiveness. Energy that could be much better used enjoying your life.
By forgiving, you release yourself.
You reclaim your life.
Forgiveness is a radical Act Of Self-Love.
How do you know when you have forgiven? When you can think of them without any shift in energy in your body. There is no stress response. Then you can celebrate….. they no longer have any power over you. You have reclaimed your life.
When there has been significant trauma involved, especially if it was an act inflicted on you while you were a child that affected your beliefs and worldview at a very early age and you had no help to process it then, forgiveness is a step on the road to recovery, but it is not recovery. I would lovingly suggest that you seek professional help to work through the trauma. It is much easier to do it with someone holding space for you and providing you with new skills to understand and cope.
How do you forgive?
Indeed, how do you forgive?
There are many ways, and many books written on the subject by much smarter people than me. I can only tell you what worked for me, but you must choose a path to forgiveness that works for you.
I had cause to forgive someone for something they did to me when I was a very small child. This act caused me decades of anxiety and dysfunction and was a major cause of sub-conscious beliefs and a world-view that was very negative. When I became aware enough I made the decision that person would no longer have any power over my life. I sought an understanding of why they had done what they did. The person was no longer alive, so I researched psychology texts on the subject because I like to have an understanding of the human mind.
I sat with the belief mentioned in the previous blog .. Everybody does the best they can in every given moment.. This enabled compassion to arise.
I set the intention to forgive and reminded myself….I forgive, I forgive, I forgive. I Breathe and let go. I Breathe and let go. I Imagined forgiveness like a warm, soft, flow leaving me, going to them… and let go. Imagined the hard ball of un-forgiveness dissolving in love. I breathe and let go.
I absolutely understood that forgiveness was an act of self-love – I did it for me. I did it because I wanted to be free. I did it because I did not want my future to be more of my past. I did it because I wanted peace.
Forgiveness is an act of self-love.
Set yourself free.
Everyone is doing the best that they are able within the understanding and awareness they have in each moment.
Many years ago, I read similar words, and it made sense to me, so I decided to adopt it as a belief and see how it worked for me. When we understand that everyone is doing the best they are capable of, it helps us to let go of intolerance. It helps us to forgive others for what we perceived they did to us, and it helps us to forgive ourselves.
I am going to explain it in a little more depth, but first I want to say this. I have just realised that the main difference between me and most people I know, is that I consciously choose what I want to believe. I consciously choose beliefs that resonate with me, that encourage me to be kinder, more tolerant, peaceful, loving and joyful…. that make my life happy. At the same time, I am so open to letting go of sub-conscious beliefs that I have held for many years and no longer serve me, that life is constantly bringing me experiences to show me what they are so with awareness, I can acknowledge them and send them on their way with love. They no longer have any power over me. I do this all the time. It has been the underlying driving force in my life since 2007. This is why, at the age of 53, I sit, in the presence of my own imminent death, in love and joy and peace. No anxiety or stress.
Back to the statement that everyone is doing their best in every given moment. Once again, I am going to bang on about the mind. I will continue to beat this drum over and over and over again. Why? Because the mind is the cause of ALL our suffering. Most people think it is life that is the cause of our suffering. It is not. It is our own mind.
None of us are in our right mind. The only right mind is the Mind of God/Creator/The Divine. This is the only Mind that sees things as they really are, that clearly sees the bigger picture… the Much Bigger, Eternal Picture. We have access to (a tiny part) of this Mind through our Spirit, our Higher Self (there are so many different names) through inspiration, awareness, revelation (aha moments), and through choosing to focus our attention on things that grow our connection with our Spirit.
The human mind has several parts. For the purposes of this blog post, I will focus mainly on two. The sub-conscious mind and the conscious mind. The sub-conscious mind is, (on the negative side), unaware, delusional, afraid (driven by survival), often juvenile and deeply conditioned. It runs automatically on programs, responding to prompts without rational thought. I have seen figures thrown around by experts who believe that most people operate from the sub-conscious mind around 90% of the time. This is clearly not good news for the individual or humanity as a whole. What we want to do is increase our awareness so we are operating more of the time out of the conscious mind. The conscious human mind is capable of rational, intelligent thought. It can accept new ideas quickly, adjust, plan, apply logic and reason and make informed decisions. It is still very subject to bias, perception, the beliefs of the sub-conscious mind and capable of delusion, but it is a step up in awareness from the sub-conscious mind. The ideal is to be operating out of what Carl Jung called the Super Conscious Mind – or the Mind of God. It is something to aim for…
The sub-conscious mind is not bad. It is incredibly important and very clever at what it does, but the major problem arises when we live in such a way that most of our time is spent in our sub-conscious mind. We don’t live in the present. We are just re-creating our past. Our awareness isn’t great. We live life according to beliefs that were created when we were children. This is clearly obvious when a belief that is based in pain is triggered, then we act like children, reverting back instantly to the age we were when that belief was created and losing the ability to use the rational intelligent thinking associated with our conscious mind.
All of us have had a trigger triggered (sorry, I really can’t think of a better word), at some point and “lost it”. I am talking about a time when someone said or did something and you reacted. The rage, hurt, offense, shame, guilt, victim-hood, aggression, whatever the feeling was, arose instantly and you either shut down, attacked or defended yourself. The retaliatory words flew out of your mouth before you could even think, or you went straight into being deeply offended, or you just wanted to crawl under a rock and hide because you felt so deeply ashamed. You reacted.
Many, many people, in fact I would go so far as to say most people, have no idea that they have been triggered and are now not operating out of their conscious mind. They believe that whatever it was that happened outside of themselves… the event, the action or words of another, is the cause of them feeling like this.
My Friend, it isn’t.
It is your own mind.
When I understood that other people could hear the same words I had heard, experience the same event I had experienced…. AND NOT REACT……. I realised that the problem, AND THE SOLUTION, were in my own mind.
This is really powerful….. it means that when you learn how to manage your own mind, you won’t feel all those negative emotions that you thought things outside of yourself were causing. You have stopped being a victim of life.
It seems like I have got off-track, but it ties in. Everyone, in every moment is doing the best they are capable of IN that moment..
Do you see what I mean?
We can only operate out of the awareness and understanding that we have in each individual moment. It is impossible for us, in that moment to be any different… otherwise we would…. who doesn’t want to make the most intelligent, rational, inspired, perfect choice in every moment if they knew what it was and the benefits it would bring.
When we have been triggered and are operating from our sub-conscious mind, then we have very little awareness and intelligent understanding at all. We are operating out of emotion without conscious awareness, and that has been proven time and time again to not end well.
Yesterday a friend shared a post on facebook of people in the UK protesting in a rally against wearing face masks. I didn’t read the full account because my initial reaction was annoyance. I thought, well that is absolutely ridiculous, they need to get over themselves, think about others, stop being selfish etc. I fully understand that for most people, COVID-19 doesn’t cause much of a problem. But for some people it does, and because it seems to be super contagious, the main problem is the ability of Health Care Systems to cope with more people than usual requiring ICU and Ventilators. Simple really. In an evolved culture, people look after each other and don’t act in ways that put other people, particularly the vulnerable ones, in danger. There is also the annoyance of knowing that these people who refuse to wear face masks and who get a severe case of COVID-19 are going to be up at the hospital wanting ICU care and a ventilator if necessary.
But the point I am trying to make is this. If those people were capable in their minds of having the awareness and understanding which allows the majority of the population to quietly don face masks and get on with life as it is at the moment, then they would be doing just that… quietly donning face masks. But they aren’t, because something in their mind is telling them that their personal rights, or whatever it is that they feel is being violated by wearing a face mask, is more important than wearing a face mask. And they are believing what their mind is telling them. They are believing what they are feeling. It is what we all do. Sometimes the results are disastrous.
They are doing the best with the understanding and awareness they have right this moment. There is no point in being angry and blaming, that just upsets our peace, and adds to the intolerance and unrest that is gathering momentum in the world at the moment. They cannot and will not change until they can. Anger and berating just produce resistance. Fines might do the trick …or not. Calm and reasoned presentation of an alternative view might do the trick… or not.
We have all been, and all are, hostage to our mind.
To create a better world, we all need to begin to question our own minds. Stop blindly believing our thoughts. Open ourselves to other points of view, challenge our thinking. We all tend to surround ourselves with people that have similar beliefs and views as us because it is comfortable and it reinforces our own “rightness”. Because our views and beliefs seem so right to us, it is then easy to label those who believe differently as ignorant, misguided and misled. The results of this thinking is separation, intolerance, discrimination and a multitude of other attitudes that are the opposite of harmony.
Life is so much better lived in harmony. Life is so much better lived in love and joy and peace and tolerance. Life is so much better when we live with openness.
But that is my opinion.
It has become my truth.
You don’t need to believe me.
Sit with the thought that everyone is doing the best they are able in every given moment and see if it works for you.
Life is Beautiful.
It is also full of paradox.
In accepting death, we learn how to truly live.
In accepting our faults and vulnerabilities we become truly strong.
In letting go, we gain more.
In slowing down, and aligning with the flow of Life, we achieve more – effortlessly.
The more we give, the more we receive.
The more we understand, the more we realise we don’t know.
There are many. many seeming paradoxes to Life. It’s because humanity has, in the main, been blundering through Life with a particular mindset that is rather askew.
This mindset says that there is not enough for everyone. It says that WE are not enough. It says we have to fight and struggle for what we want. It says to hang onto what we get, and keep it for ourselves. It says that each person is an island, alone, disconnected. It says that fast is better than slow. It says that nature is here to be exploited by mankind. It says that the Physical reality is more real than the Spiritual Reality. It says that we are sinful and weak and not worthy. It says that power lies in force. It says that violence achieves useful results. It says that how many assets you accummulate is an indication of success. It encourages competition, while espousing co-operation. It pays people who simply entertain us, more than people who save lives and serve humanity. It says fear, anxiety and stress are a normal part of life.
I could go on.
I bought into these beliefs to varying degrees for forty years. Until my life crashed in a heap, and nothing made sense. Nothing I had learned could sustain me.
Some-one once said “the biggest cult of all is our culture”. It is good to contemplate this. Because it is – we unconsciously absorb the beliefs of our culture then live them out, until something happens to break us out of the stupor and causes us to question.
Life is actually beautiful.
But whether you experience it that way or not, depends on your mindset. The world reflects ourselves back to us. Everything is energy. Including us. Including our thoughts. Including the beliefs we hold.
All the great Spiritual traditions speak of Reaping what we Sow, Karma – whatever name it is called by. This concept has often been presented as a warning or a judgment. That is not the spirit or the energy of it. It is like a universal program – a formula – it is entirely predictable. Enter data in…. receive data out. According to the program. And yet, humanity is so busy, head down, doing, doing, doing, following its erroneous belief systems, It can’t see the bigger picture.
What I am saying is clearly a huge simplification of an incredible Creation which is beyond the understanding of our human minds. But even this simple understanding has the power to transform your life – for the better. Beyond your wildest dreams.
It may not seem this way, but we are fortunate to be here in human body. Right here, Right now. There is no mistake. You and I are meant to be here. These are exciting times, the potential for a massive shift in human consciousness. But these appear to be increasingly perilous times. Especially this year. It seems as though “all hell has broken loose”. Globally. The scab on the wound of humanity seems somehow to have been ripped off, and all the fear, discrimination, violence, suppression, abuse of power, corruption etc is oozing out like pus from a putrefying sore.
And as, in an individual human body, the wound must be opened to the light to be cleaned and healed, so must the wounds on the body of humanity.
I know that many Christians are saying it is the “last times” that were prophesied in the Bible. I don’t see it that way. I see this chaos and mayhem, the laying open of the global wounds as the possible saving of humanity. We couldn’t carry on like we were. The earth itself will not be able to sustain humanity for too much longer if we continue the way we are.
But many people are waking up. The esoteric (deeper, hidden truths) of Creation and Life are being re-discovered. Are readily available. The veil between the Spiritual and the physical world is thinner… great spiritual truths are coming through constantly via many different people. Science, particularly Quantum Physics, is beginning to prove what Sages and Masters have known for centuries.
Humanity is not alone in this. There are spiritual powers working unseen for our good. But we have free will. And at the base of everything. Permeating everything. Being everything. Is an unconditionally loving Creator. Don’t let us forget this.
Life is beautiful.
Life is not random. We are not helpless victims of Life (although that becomes our reality because we believe it). We are not just frail little human bodies and minds, meaninglessly subject to disease and circumstance. Blown in the wind of Life. We are not that. But when our centre of consciousness is in our physical reality only, it seems to be true, and we live out of that paradigm, sending the energy of that belief out – and that is what we receive back.
Our perceptions, create our reality, which reinforce our perceptions (because we get back what we send out), which reinforces our reality. And on and on it goes in a circle. And it becomes our experience and therefore our truth.
Life is beautiful. Life happens For us, not To us. Life supports, always, always supports our growth. Life holds us in love. Life gives us what we ask of it – the problem is, most of the time we don’t even know what we are asking for. (Look at your life – if there is something you are seeking, but you are not receiving it, then begin to know yourself. Chances are you have a sub-conscious belief system at variance with what you desire that has a greater energetic charge than your conscious desire). We have forgotten that we are energy. We have forgotten how to direct our energy. We have forgotten the greatest source of energy. We have forgotten the unconditional Love of our Creator. We have forgotten, forgotten, forgotten.
Let us seek to remember. Re-member. Put back together what we really are. What is already there.
Life is truly beautiful. Away from the clamour and noise of the human mind that has forgotten, everything is peace and love and joy. Awe, gratitude, wonder, peace, joy and love become the only response possible.
What you send out comes back exponentially. More love, more joy, more peace, more awe, more wonder, more gratitude. It becomes the default setting. Effortless.
Life is beautiful.
Life is truly beautiful.
Choose to see it that way.
We have forgotten what we are.
Genesis 1:27 “So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him, male and female he created them”.
I may not identify as Christian, because my understanding of Jesus, God and the Bible don’t align with what most Christian churches teach today, (reading Marcus Borg’s book “The Heart of Christianity”is now making me think perhaps there is a place within Christianity where I could fit), but I studied the Bible for the first 40 years of my life. It is a sacred text, with many great spiritual truths in it, and because I live in a predominantly Christian country, which tends to regard the Bible as the only sacred text worth reading, I often like to refer the lessons Life has taught me into Christian language. There is a still a mistrust in many people towards Eastern Spirituality which I think is a great shame. There are many sacred texts and deep wisdom to be found there, and many of the great Eastern spiritual traditions provide a more practical framework than Christianity does, on how to incorporate this spiritual wisdom into everyday life.
I believe that God is universal. I do not believe that God is available specifically to people of one religion or another and not to others. This belief about Gods availability has been the cause of separation, intolerance, judgment, discrimination, anger, domination, superiority and wars. Whilst God cannot be blamed for mankind’s interpretation of God’s Will, if the results of a belief about God’s Will are the direct opposite of Love, then one has to wonder on a purely logical level alone, if perhaps the belief requires deeper contemplation with an open heart.
To get back to the topic of this blog post.
We Are Creators.
Like most verses in the Bible, the above verse is open to many different interpretations within the limited scope of the human mind to comprehend Spiritual matters, but my personal favourite interpretation of this verse is that God created mankind as Creators – like God is'(but to a lesser degree – clearly).
Even though the evidence of our ability to create is all around us – in the many physical products designed and then built by mankind and the manipulation of nature for our own comfort, this knowing of ourselves as creators has not been extended to every aspect of our life with conscious awareness.
Most of humanity has limited themselves severely.
We create our lifestyle – this is obvious when we think about it. However, we have allowed even that creation to be limited by the prevailing social and economic beliefs of the cultures we live in. We unconsciously adopt these beliefs, and they become ours, providing the parameters of mind within which we operate. The parameters of mind that limit us.
Most people have heard the awful story of the elephant who was chained by the foot to a post in the ground when it was young and kept there. When it was older and bigger, and much much stronger, the same chain and post kept it trapped there even though physically the elephant could now simply pull it out and walk away. It was trapped within the limits of that chain, because it had the belief it was. It still believed in the experience of the past, when it was little and powerless and the chain was stronger, and it remained trapped – by its belief.
Most humans are like this. Unconsciously living within the confines of limiting beliefs that keep them stuck. There are some exceptions of course – the people who do amazing things that seem to defy the limits of what was thought humanly possible. They do this, because somehow, they have broken the stranglehold of limiting beliefs, reached for the stars then had the will to take action and follow their dream.
Most of us, at one time or another, have awoken to the possibility of something different – a different choice perhaps – a standing up for ourselves – a step outside our personal box. We have often approached the change with caution, thinking our world might collapse, people might hate us, things might go frightfully awry, only to discover that the opposite is true, everything falls into place, things change for the better, and we look around wondering why the heck we put up with the status quo for so long before we made a move.
We put up for so long because of our sub-conscious limiting beliefs that told us safety lay within the known, and anything outside of the limits was unknown, scary and potentially a danger. Unless our desire for change arises from inspiration with its accompanying positive energy, (or total desperation), the feelings of fear and anxiety of stepping outside our comfort zone often overwhelm us and we sink back into the stupor of the known.
We Are Creators.
We have an enormous, untapped, personal potential for creating. And most of us barely scratch the surface.
In the country I live in, it is possible for the individual to feel they have a measure of control over their life. They can make choices. We are fortunate. But despite this freedom, depression, suicide, stress, anxiety, domestic violence, general violence and chronic illness are all on the rise. Dramatically on the rise.
A fundamental problem, I believe, is that we have all been mis-directed into using our creative abilities on the physical world. Our external world. We don’t use our creative abilities internally, within our mind. The focus is outward. This only brings a temporary happiness.
We Are Creators. While we cannot control a lot of what goes on outside of ourselves – Life still sends us (or seems to) accidents, death, job losses, wars, unpleasant people, unemployment, illness etc. We can use our creative abilities to manage how we experience life.
For some reason, this is a very under-rated ability. We Can Use Our Creative Abilities To Manage How We Experience Life.
This is really, really powerful. One of the most life-changing concepts you will come across. It has the power to literally transform your life. Not just your mental and emotional life, but it on-flows to your physical life also.
Imagine you and your neighbour experience the death of a partner. The light goes out of her life. She struggles to accept and adjust. He was too young, it isn’t fair, I’m alone, I’m frightened -she sinks into grief and despair, and ultimately ends up on anti-depressants. She shuts down through fear and sorrow. You, on the other hand have consciously chosen to use your creativity within your mind. You have chosen to adopt beliefs about life and death that sustain you. You believe that everything unfolds perfectly in Divine order, in Divine timing. You trust that you live in a universe that supports you. You open your heart to the outpouring of love and support from friends and family, you believe you are all Eternal Souls, that death is not the end, but a transition. You open your heart to finding love and peace and joy, because you aren’t trapped in negative beliefs about life and death. Can you imagine how different your experiences of a similar event are going to be?
This is just a tiny example of the power of perception and it’s affects on our life. We all perceive the world in a particular way, based on our conditioned mind, mostly we do this unconsciously, and believe that our perceptions are real – they are to us. But we can change them, and change our life for the better in the process.
We Are Creators.
We are not victims of life, except within our own mind. We are Eternal Spirit having a human experience.
We have the ability to change our mind.
And when we bring our Soul into the equation and seek to align our minds and bodies with the Eternal aspect of ourselves – Ah… then, we’ve brought in the big guns, and our life will improve beyond our wildest dreams.
You don’t have to believe me. I have lived the victim-hood role. Now I am living the conscious creator role. I am happy to report that the latter is incomparably better. This has been my life journey and it is very real to me. You have your own path and your own choices, but please, please, open your mind and heart to greater possibilities – open your mind and heart to you as a creator: empowered, inspired and inspirational.
This is what we are. It is just our limiting sub-conscious beliefs that convince us otherwise.
Free yourself and fly.